I MISS YOU

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I miss you

I miss you bad

I miss you so much I can’t lie

This past week I have been to a

Place of deep sorrow and back

Where seeds were almost sown

And I made sure there were no reap backs

 

The past week has had you upset and sad

And me crazily confused and saddened

 

I missed you even amidst the storm

As I prayed on for days of norms

 

I missed you till I cried

Tears poured down my face

Shamelessly as I wiped

 

I missed you for there was this hole

I knew not how it got there

Then found out I had been digging

Them up in past years

 

I miss you I miss you so

A pain I caused to my soul

 

I miss you my beauty queen

Missed you so much till pain

Almost called me a friend

But I hoped as hard as I missed you

And prayer brought me back to you

 

I miss you I miss you so

I never want to hurt you again

And let such a resentment grow

 

I miss you my love,

Miss you till I lost myself

A week of loneliness did me in

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Whatever Happened to Us?

 

Whatever happened to us?

only you would know now.

We stood the test of time

and made everyone jealous

We beat the odds making it real.

With you I was lost in this wild wave of love,

where only you and I existed,

where our worlds evolved around us

and mattered only to us

What really happened to us?

Can I tell?

Searched my heart and soul I have,

driven almost to a state of insanity

Would I ever get to know?

In this big sea of trouble that flows

What ever happened to us?

 

2011….

Missing you

Depression Cell

stuck in my head,

battered by pain

shackled to my fears, disoriented,

I needless say.

Strewn flat, stripped bare,

I lay in my skull in tears.

Slip, slip … I free fall tipped into an abyss

Faint, faint… my world dims

Deeper I sink, with not a bleak of light

Hope thoughts light years away

Gloom did me in today

 

2012..

Winged Heart

drawing by http://dracorin-themanyworldsofdraco.blogspot.com/

I once told a lie

I once told a lie

That tore nations apart

Dug trenches and buried the goods of the land

 

I once told a lie

That construed my shape

And left me with a distorted persona

 

I once told a lie

A lie that broke hearts and condemned grace

Yet it birth space and hate

 

I once told a lie

That ripped my foundation apart

And destroyed years of hard sold trust

 

I once told a lie

That looked like me

For I became the lie

 

I once told a lie

And felt sorry from my depths

But yet empty in my soul

 

I once told a lie

And pleaded for forgiveness

Hoping my plea would bring me amnesty

 

I once told a lie

And lost my soul

For without her I was just a hole

 

I once told a lie

And regretted my actions

But my actions got the best of this

 

I once told a lie

And said I would come clean

But not even a thousand soaps could help wash away the debris on this broken bridge

 

I once told a lie

that made her a hater

and pushed me far from my maker

 

I once told a lie

And severed connections with love

Now am lost and love don’t love me on more

 

2012…

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Where Did I Go Wrong?

Cast glances at my phone,

My heart beat racing at every ring,

Yet another friends that matters not

In the present state of things,

Where did I go wrong?

 

My mind pacing at a thousand thoughts per minute

Seeking answers to this misgiving.

My finger stuck on my keys

Finding the perfect words to spill

Where did I go wrong?

 

Long stares with no intent,

Lost in a naught of full despair

I remain in definite denial

For this written piece would bear no recital

Where did I go wrong?

 

Swimming past memory blocks

With a desperation to recap on a once perfect love

With a recollection of a happy ever after

I smile at togetherness; past

Where did I go wrong?

 

Nights of starry bliss

Days of glowing kisses

All locked up in a pent up limbo

With me hoping this does not amount to zero

Where did I go wrong?

2012….                                                                                             love gone wrong